Did a really hard thing on wed night, but glad it is done. Still hurts.
Gave up my apartment for a while on friday night. Got to see What A Girl Wants with Safire. Was a really fun fluffy movie. I forgot to turn off my cellphone during the movie and it rang. I feel like an idiot.
Went to see the Motzart concert at Smith on Saturday. I was really hard to be there. I was very brave (mostly)
Came to some hard realizations recently. They make me angry.
The landlady called last week. She is thinking about selling the place. Won't do it until the lease runs out in September, but she brought people by on saturday and when Aerith and I went to CostCo (which eats my soul and has Rodger Rabbit on DVD, yup...we own it now :) ) we saw her and the people talking at a car and there were some papers or something. So now Aerith and I have to find a new place to live. I HATE moving. I really do. I was just getting comfortable at my apartment. We are going to try to move somewhere in the complex, but still...blech. And the worst part is that I am probably going to go to grad school in a year or so. I'm not just looking at UMass, so if we end up moving somewhere else, it will really suck. I hate being somewhere for just a short period of time. I hate the idea of not really belonging anywhere or having anywhere that belongs to me. Aerith keeps talking about buying a place, but I know that at 23 I'm not ready for that yet. And I don't really want to be tied to the valley forever.
Mommala will be here in 28 hours!!! Must clean the apartment before Passover on Saturday. Still need to find out how many people are coming over for that.
My car, besides the wheel bearing noise becoming louder, is starting to read hotter than ever before. This only happens after I get off the highway and have to idle the car for a while (like at a stop light), it's worse when I'm on an uphill. Could just be the warmer weather though, b/c it's not reading much highter. But that's another thing to worry about, along w/the fact that I still have snow tires on my car.
I need to take the GREs and find out more about grad schools.
I need to decided what direction I want my life to take. I still feel too young for that.
I just feel like there's a lot on my plate right now, but somehow I know I'll get through it all. I hope.