October 13, 2000 - April 5, 2002
Hell-beast, brat, beloved cat.
Today
lordaerith came home to find Spectre stiff and lifeless in 3Gs closet. We don't know how it happened. We are blaming ourselves: "I should have seen the signs." "We should have called the vet." etc. I feel very numb. I didn't believe him at first. But then I saw the cat with my own eyes. He was my first cat. Aerith is taking this very hard. I grieve silently because I must be there for him. Nayone is here too. That is good. The more love that people have around them when tragedy strikes, the better.I still don't believe it. he was our first cat. I was even thinking about when he was going to get older and when i had a kid how he was going to react. i was thinking about how i would deal with the grief the child felt when he died. But I guess it will never happen.
An air of heaviness sits on the apartment tonight.
Good-bye Spectre. May you rest in peace.
