On friday we got there around 8pm (my ETA!) and got settled and then showed people who hadn't been there before around. This ended in an impromptu ritual. yay yay.
then a whole bunch of us went into the hot tub. there was lots of nakedness and lots of "who ever i might be molesting, i'm sorry."
"what do you call 12 pagans in a hot tub?"
"A self-cleaning coven."
I guess there was an Earthquake at somepoint, but i didn't feel it at all. *L* I've always been so afraid of earthquakes and i slept through my first one.
On saturday we just took an easy day, chilling, talking, reading. I fell back asleep for a few hours after lunch. it was nice.
Then we planned Beltane. Yay for Beltane. I got to be the goddess as the "maiden/warrior/mother." It was really really powerful. We worked on the idea of beings coming together to create life (not just in the male/female dicotomy). I'd write more, but a lot of it is a very happy blur.
Then there was more hottubbing. :)
The next morning we did ASP business stuff, and then packed up to leave.
When we were about to leave, i had everyone stand in a circle and, as the only senior, i left each of them something special(either phyical or some words) . I hope that it becomes a tradition that continues.
Good Things
- Being at Touchstone Farms
- Getting Sleep
- Hottub fun
- Bonding with lots of wonderful people
- Being espically close to Nayone, whom I love so very much!
- BELTANE
- DidI mention Nayone?
- All the good conversations with people "... and then I came to Smith and joined ASP."
Bad things
- This being the last retreat i will go on as a smith student.
- Having 3 Anxiety dreams:
- Friday 1 - Drempt about breaking up with Aerith (over a silly reason) and then going to Nayone's room, but she was leaving to go to a meeting, so I was very alone and scared.
- Friday 2 - Drempt there was a ritual at Smith and it was going all wrong. Then I was in another dimention and things got really strange.
- Saturday - Drempt that there was a test in Latin class which i didn't know about until i got to class b/c i missed class on Friday (that was the Catholic's fault *G*, long story).
- Friday 1 - Drempt about breaking up with Aerith (over a silly reason) and then going to Nayone's room, but she was leaving to go to a meeting, so I was very alone and scared.
- Stepping on something during the Belate ritual that put a small hole in my foot (post on that coming soon).
Just an after retreat thought: when making out in the shower, know where the wall is, so that when you orgasm you don't hit your head on it. *still feels dorky about it*
